I have always been reluctant to admit this. But I am just going to be honest:

I. HATE. MY. JOB.

I know, I should be thankful I actually have one and to do the job that was my ambition back in Form 6 (gosh, feel so old with ambition pulak).

SOME PEOPLE ARE JUST SO MEAN.

Did they not started out like us, being prps and all, making mistakes on the job since we are all new? What the fuck is wrong with them? If you are not willing to teach, just admit it. Stop acting like you are trying to teach when you are not and then expecting me to know what to do. And expecting me to do the job perfectly with zero mistakes. I am not a ROBOT okay?

I. HATE. THEM.

I know it is offensive to scold people like this but fuck, I am just so sick of these kind of people already.

Just so tired lately... 

“oh for crying out loud humprey” – b.w.

***The title has nothing to do with the post wtf. I am such a huge Gossip Girl fan and right now I am trying to stream the latest episode of Season 5 but the damn freakin’ line is so slow wtf.***

It seems that when I first started this blog, I wanted to write about everything happening in my life, 24/7. But nowadays just for me to type anything at all is an accomplishment. I am terribly exhausted from my work. But most of all I am tired of making mistakes. The worst kind of feeling is the feeling of disappointment in yourself. This coming week is my final week in Pediatrics. I just pray and hope I can do right by making nil mistakes.

This past 2 weeks and upcoming weeks will be pretty hectic for me, especially weekends since I started my on-call shifts. My first on-call shift was this past Wednesday night and it was a disaster, needless to say. T___________T…with all these catastrophes happening in my profession, I am beginning to have doubts as to whether I made the right choice venturing down this career path.

I am working tomorrow morning, hopefully it will be better this time around…

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Just some pics in my Iphone that I have yet to post;)

Some time after my convocation, my aunt treated myself and my mom to Oriental Palace at Jaya33 for dim sum. I absolutely love to eat dim sum since young. I have never been here before but the food was delicious! A big thank you to my aunt:)

This was one of my favourites!

Lo Mai Kai

Super cute earrings – grabbed 2 for myself, courtesy of aunt:)

Recently on Monday, they closed all the clinics at Pediatrics for the MRCP exam. It was an exam for medical officers to become specialists. Each clinic was used as a venue for a station with individual themes. For the theme of Communications, they needed to cast for the role of a 15 year old Chinese girl patient. As luck would have it, myself and Li Ling were asked to auditioned for the role by the officer in the pharmacy. In the end, we each took turns portraying the same role. Myself in the morning session and Li Ling in the afternoon.

All we had to do was act according to the script given and ask the candidates questions as if we were patients ourselves. Last Sunday, we were invited to Le Meridien where all the medical professors slash examiners were having a meeting. After the meeting, the examiners met up with us role players for a short discussion. Best part was after that, we were invited to have lunch at Le Meridien restaurant buffet-style!

There were so much food that I regretted eating such a heavy breakfast. I wanted to take more pics but felt a bit shy as we were sitting at the same table as the other professors. But the food was simply awesome and we didn’t even have to pay a dime for it! 

Dessert – my favourite! There was a chocolate fondue fountain and the stone cold ice-cream booth where they will mixed any flavors or toppings for you (a la Gelatomio style @ Pavilion). I mixed green tea + vanilla + raisins + almonds = awesome but weird wtf.

One of my favourites was the pasta because we get to choose the type of pasta we wanted, the sauce and all the toppings. Then, they will cook on the spot for you. I was observing the chef cooking mine so that I can picked up some few tips wtf.

Some selca shots of me and Li Ling

Finally wore the blue floral dress that I bought in CNY but only worn once. I seriously need to start wearing my old clothes.

Please wish me luck that I stop making mistakes :(

-yours truly, fifiona-    

snapshots of my convocation ♥270911♥

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updates:

I dyed my hair! Well, sort-of. I actually originally planned to just wash and trim my unruly hair. After everything was done, the lady commented that some highlights in my hair would be really nice. Because I was so tired, I kindly declined but my mom was like, okay just do it. So I did! My first experience with hair dye. The smell was pretty intoxicating, to be honest. And then they had this thing rotating around my hair injecting heat. 

But I am super stoked with the final results. It is not so obvious as I only did some orange-coloured streaks at the top of my hair. At least it's not the same boring hair I have had for 20++ years now!

On happier news, I finally got my first paycheck! And I blew some away by shopping this week. I know, I am super inefficient in managing my finances. Must. Control. Spending. 

3 more weeks to go in Paediatrics before I moved on to my next station - Gallenicals. Praying really hard to stop making mistakes already :(

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So finally decided to blog about my convocation last Tuesday. Yes, a weekday wtf. Well, I am not really going to blog full-length about it since there is nothing much to talk about. I will just post some of my favourite shots of the day. Btw, not all these photos are taken by me. Some I stole from facebook because those that I took were so fugly (of me, of course wtf). I am also super grateful Tze Im's friend is a pro photographer who captured some really awesome shots. You can visit his facebook for more details.

The Saturday night before, I had some impromptu shots with my extended family of uncles, aunts and cousins in my graduation robes.

I arrived pretty late and omigosh so glad to see Suzane there in her bright pink robes. I had to give FSKB's graduation a miss due to work commitments. So sad I could not be there for their big day.

More impromptu cam-whore shots while waiting to enter the hall

woke up at 6.30am on saturday morning =.=!!!

I am so ecstatic that it was Friday because the next day will be Saturday. I imagined a Saturday where I can feel relax and de-stress myself from all the troubles I have at work. But instead today I had so much things going on that before I knew it, it is already 11pm and I am too dead exhausted to do anything.

Woke up super early on a weekend morning >.<. Maybe coz I slept super early last night. First time ever I went to sleep at 9.30pm wtf. Even my mom was shocked. This prp job demands so much from me and although I love the complexity and varieties that come with this job, I find it an absolute nightmare to work with people. It seems like no matter where I work, there will be at least one person who gives me such a hard time at work. Sigh. I think I am way too soft is it wtf. That people can bully me so easily. T___T

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On a happier note, this week besides all the shit happening at work, outside of work it has been a pretty awesome week. My bad streak when coming to food has ended, well, maybe at least for this week. 

It started with Levain. When anyone asks me to recommend any nice places to eat in downtown KL, Levain Boulangerie always come to my mind. The soup is super nice ok. I almost finish it and it wasn't even mine lol. 

Mushroom cream soup

Rasberry tea or something. Too sour for my liking.

Lasagna! Super delicious :)

♥240911♥

I specifically typed the date because it was simply, the #BESTDAYEVER.

The day started with awesome gathering slash lunch with my UKM mates - Clara, Jane and YS. It has been so long since I last saw them. Inevitably as we are all in the same profession, our talk mainly revolves around what else but our new jobs.

The food is not bad really. Quite delicious. Definitely one of those places I will frequent again in the future. The ambience is also pretty, a la Full House restaurants.

second week of september

I am starting to get into the habit of blogging on a weekly basis now. Yay for me. Just feel like venting out anyway.

So another week in Pediatrics Outpatient. The best thing this week, was the fact that Li Ling came to joined me! Yay, at least I have someone I know around. I became sort of like a "teacher", telling her the ropes of how the department ran. Not that I am any more experienced. 

This week I also started to learn more about dispensing and counselling. The former, they don't really let me do much as it can be a bit tricky if you don't know how the medicine works. I only did it for one day when there were many patients. I had fun but I was also wary because I am afraid I missed some things or tell things wrongly to patients. 

As for counselling, I finally tried it last Friday. It was a Malay couple, with 2 young boys. The 3-year-old son was my target. I was supposed to teach the parents how to use the aerochamber for their son. I slipped up in the beginning, teaching them how to use the inhaler instead (stupid of me), before finally the pharmacist monitoring me corrected my mistake. And that was just the beginning of my disaster. When I tried to demonstrate placing the aerochamber onto the boy, he started bawling. He cried non-stop throughout the whole counselling. I panicked, unsure what to do next. Finally, the pharmacist had to take over for me. Sigh...T________T.

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Anyway, back on a happier note. Have been micro-blogging more often on Twitter now. So this is just a summary of my Twitter updates lol. Mostly are snapshots of my latest outing with my former roommate, Suzane (her blog is RIP so no point linking wtf). She finally quit her MUNDANE job in a insurance company and venture back to her hometown of the hill below the wind (geddit?) for a better higher-paying job in a bank.

fangirl mode: I need a life:(

Finally I am awake enough to blog. Been feeling super tired this week but I felt good last Friday since I made less mistakes than usual, albeit I still do the most silliest things.

I have been using Twitter more often than ever now, all thanks to my current obsession with Damian McGinty from The Glee Project. I am hoping he will retweet me but my chances are slim since he has about 165,000++ followers and gawd knows how many mentions a day. But still, I won't give up. Lol, I am in such a fangirl mode right now. I would ask you to follow me on twitter but if you don't want to get spammed by my DM tweets...well, you know *shy*.

Nothing much happening right now. I am still in Pediatrics unit, had my first lunch call on Thursday, where I had to work all through lunch. Other than that day, I usually have lunch with the girls - all the new PRPs. I feel really thankful because here in HKL, I have 2 friends from UKM (my uni); my 2 old friends whom I studied Form 6 with and part of the BF family; and finally my new PRP friends from IMU. Not forgetting the PRPs who are about to finish soon - they are all really nice:) But I wished I can feel less awkward around strangers :(

Been spending lots of time on youtube watching videos on The Glee Project. Some of the videos they made were super awesome. Few of my favourites and those you MUST-SEE are: The Only Exception (Paramore cover), Damian's cover of Beyond the Sea, and Cameron's Blackbird. There are many more but these are the few I can remember off my head right now. 

So now my photo spam begins:

light blue eyes and baritone voice

the bad food streak never stops...went to Kenny Rogers for lunch and their side dishes were so tasteless! Yesterday we ordered Pizza Hut delivery and for the first time ever, our delivery was late! Came like 40 mins later and our pizza was all cold, tasted horrible. Called them to complain since their policy was 30 mins delivery...I had to call twice before anyone listened. Ugh, hate bad customer service!!!

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Something totally random to cheer myself up. Had a rough day at work yesterday. Kept making mistakes and I am just so upset with myself. Luckily, the people were nice but I wonder how long can their patience lasts. I wished I can be less "blur" and focus more on my work. But I tend to panic especially when they expect me to do the work really fast. My mind operates really slow. Just so upsetting...

Go youtube and watch 2PM's necktie dance for "I'm Your Man", their Japanese single. I think it is one of their best choreographies ever. I hope they make a Korean version of that song so they can perform at Korean music public shows. Seriously, love the mv :)

Taecyeon, Junho, Junsu, Nichkhun, Wooyoung and Chansung

Have a huge crush on Damian McGinty, Jr. as mentioned in my previous post. I have finally been catching up on some episodes of "The Glee Project" and the talents on that show are enormous. Seriously, I don't know how they can eliminate anyone. My favourites are definitely Cameron, Damian and Samuel. 

Damian's blue eyes are gorgeous and his voice is unique, the deep kind that I like. Probably because I have always had a soft spot for swingers music, like Micheal Buble and Frank Sinatra. Like his accent too although half the time I seriously have no clue what he is saying. And his humour. Cameron and him are besties. Google CDTV and you can find videos of them together.

Damian McGinty

Damian and Cameron, another huge talent:)

I absolutely love Super Junior's comeback of "Mr. Simple" and finally, after all this while, I have a favourite SuJu member. It's Lee Donghae! Although Eunhyuk came quite close, lol. I like his hair in this comeback and he can dance so well! Lol, I am being such a fangirl. Anyway, he got injured recently, poor thing. I was watching bromance videos between him and Eunhyuk...so funny but cute;)

Lee Donghae

Some days I feel so lazy to blog. It seems like my thoughts are all in a mess and it is hard to convey them through words. Having to face difficulties at work and at home, I look to the web for inspirational words to keep me going. I don't want to quit but when things can really hard, I feel depressed. 

This is one of my favourite quotes, reminding myself (and maybe some friends out there) to not be "desperate" when it comes to relationships. I know, I talk like I am such an expert but I am not okay? ;)

My convocation is on 27th Sept 2011. Finally I am graduating =)

yours truly

fiona

starting work and bad food

This week I start work.

Yes, work. A word I have been dreading. Some of my friends (who never work before, obviously) do not understand the reason I detest this word. Now they do. Lol.

But, everyone grows up. And eventually, we must enter the real world and start earning our own living.

I went to report to HKL on Tuesday and it was so so tiring running around from one department to another. Official documents, forms, cops and signatures.

I was assigned to the Pediatrics unit. The work is not much, but due to my lack of experience working in a hospital environment, I find myself struggling and making mistakes. Thankfully, the people have been great and cut me some slack since I am new but I really wished I can learn things faster and hopefully, not make any critical mistakes that can harm the patients.

Unfortunately, being in Peads also mean I have to walk quite the distance as the building is pretty isolated than the main block, where most of my PRP friends are. It is difficult during lunch hour as we only get an hour break and I find it hard to reach back Peads on time because I have to take 20 minutes to walk to and fro from Peads to the main block. This is a challenge that I must learn to adapt and work on during my 10 weeks attachment here.

I am learning lots of things, although I wish I had more work to do. I am a little worried because it is the 2nd week already and I have not yet started filling in my log book. But I have not been working with enough prescriptions to have anything to fill in. Sigh. How come working life has got to be this stressful as well? T________T

I am so so so so happy that we have this 3 days break in conjunction with the Raya and Merdeka holidays. How awesome is that? I wish every week we only have 2 working days. Lol. It feels so great to wake up late and not having to face the awful traffic jam awaiting for me. And then not having to wait around for work at OPD. And not having to walk under the hot sun for lunch. And not having to face another awful x 10 traffic jam when I drive back home. 

Although I complained so much, I am, in fact, really glad and thankful to get the hospital of my choice for training and to be able to stay in my home sweet home. Just wanted to voice out some stuff. I guess all those prayers I did in both Taiwan and Bangkok really paid. I am so going to pray at Bangkok again after my PRP ends. So I am superstitious. Lol.