It's 2014 already!
Okay, it may be a little too late to mention this as it is mid-February already. But 2014 started off as an extremely busy time for me, work-related. My work was constantly never-ending and the stress of trying to live up to everyone's (usually superiors) expectations was eating me alive. Yes, January had passed by so quickly.
Now that I had my obligatory one week CNY break, I feel like a huge load had been taken off me. Granted, I still have to return to my job tomorrow but I feel like it is that time whereby I want to set some goals for 2014.
This year, I feel like going back to my early passions. I am not getting any younger and I feel like with all my stamina and enthusiasm that I still have (becoming lesser and lesser), I want to feel a sense of accomplishment by doing something non-work related successfully.
Writing has always been my passion since my early schooling days. I look forward to essay topics given by my English teachers back in those days. I missed the feel of the pen in my hand as I scribble endlessly, my mind racing with millions of thoughts. The sense of satisfaction as I read back my essay, hardly believing I could have produce those writings myself. You see, my mind is always in a disorganized mess, which is why I am such a scatterbrain. Writing keeps my mind at ease and for a moment, there is a flow of thoughts going through me.
I missed writing. I stopped writing since entering university. Having a science-related course does not really correlate to creative writing. Lack of inspiration and constant writer's blocks lead to a complete halt of my writings for good. However, this year I resolve to do more writing. Despite all the grammatical errors, I want to feel the freedom to write again.
Reading was my one greatest hobby growing up. Being an only child, it was hard to find someone you could play with. Books offered me a sense of security. I always felt like I could hide behind my books and despite being ignored by adults, I was in a little world of my own. Just me and books.
Of course, reading has never left me all this while. But the emergence of Internet and smartphones has taken up a huge chunk of my interest, which lead to me deserting my childhood "friends". Nowadays, although I picked up a book and started reading a few pages, I could never ever finish it. I get so frustrated and distracted that in the end I abandoned them again.
This year, I am resolve to make this my first priority. I want to at least finish 2 or 3 books this year. It may seem like a mere number but considering my history of not finishing a single book for the past 4 to 5 years, I would argued that this would be a good number to start.
Of course, it is not like I have not done any travelling for the past few years. I am eternally grateful that I can always get my travel buddies to go on short vacations with me for the past few years. Even this year, I have already had plans for 2 countries. Unlike past years, this time around I want to travel with more sense. Sense meaning making more use of my five senses. I want to see more, hear more, feel more. Previously although I visited one place, my mind was always distracted to other things. Consequently although photos provided proof that I was there, it felt like I was not really there. I want to have that feeling whereby, if I were to close my eyes right now I can pictured myself in that exact same place, that goosebumps kind of feeling that I can still remember it so clearly like it was just yesterday.
My writing still needs much improvement as I have no idea how to write a proper and meaningful ending to this post. I am still struggling to find a writing style I enjoyed and am good at. Should I be a funny writer? Or a serious one? It seems like my mind has still not yet been decided and hopefully by end of this year, I will be less indecisive and be more proactive in accomplishing my resolutions.