About 2014

It's 2014 already!

Okay, it may be a little too late to mention this as it is mid-February already. But 2014 started off as an extremely busy time for me, work-related. My work was constantly never-ending and the stress of trying to live up to everyone's (usually superiors) expectations was eating me alive. Yes, January had passed by so quickly. 

Now that I had my obligatory one week CNY break, I feel like a huge load had been taken off me. Granted, I still have to return to my job tomorrow but I feel like it is that time whereby I want to set some goals for 2014.

This year, I feel like going back to my early passions. I am not getting any younger and I feel like with all my stamina and enthusiasm that I still have (becoming lesser and lesser), I want to feel a sense of accomplishment by doing something non-work related successfully.

#1: WRITING

Writing has always been my passion since my early schooling days. I look forward to essay topics given by my English teachers back in those days. I missed the feel of the pen in my hand as I scribble endlessly, my mind racing with millions of thoughts. The sense of satisfaction as I read back my essay, hardly believing I could have produce those writings myself. You see, my mind is always in a disorganized mess, which is why I am such a scatterbrain. Writing keeps my mind at ease and for a moment, there is a flow of thoughts going through me.

I missed writing. I stopped writing since entering university. Having a science-related course does not really correlate to creative writing. Lack of inspiration and constant writer's blocks lead to a complete halt of my writings for good. However, this year I resolve to do more writing. Despite all the grammatical errors, I want to feel the freedom to write again.

#2: READING

Reading was my one greatest hobby growing up. Being an only child, it was hard to find someone you could play with. Books offered me a sense of security. I always felt like I could hide behind my books and despite being ignored by adults, I was in a little world of my own. Just me and books.

Of course, reading has never left me all this while. But the emergence of Internet and smartphones has taken up a huge chunk of my interest, which lead to me deserting my childhood "friends". Nowadays, although I picked up a book and started reading a few pages, I could never ever finish it. I get so frustrated and distracted that in the end I abandoned them again.

This year, I am resolve to make this my first priority. I want to at least finish 2 or 3 books this year. It may seem like a mere number but considering my history of not finishing a single book for the past 4 to 5 years, I would argued that this would be a good number to start.

#3: TRAVELLING

Of course, it is not like I have not done any travelling for the past few years. I am eternally grateful that I can always get my travel buddies to go on short vacations with me for the past few years. Even this year, I have already had plans for 2 countries. Unlike past years, this time around I want to travel with more sense. Sense meaning making more use of my five senses. I want to see more, hear more, feel more. Previously although I visited one place, my mind was always distracted to other things. Consequently although photos provided proof that I was there, it felt like I was not really there. I want to have that feeling whereby, if I were to close my eyes right now I can pictured myself in that exact same place, that goosebumps kind of feeling that I can still remember it so clearly like it was just yesterday.

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My writing still needs much improvement as I have no idea how to write a proper and meaningful ending to this post. I am still struggling to find a writing style I enjoyed and am good at. Should I be a funny writer? Or a serious one? It seems like my mind has still not yet been decided and hopefully by end of this year, I will be less indecisive and be more proactive in accomplishing my resolutions.