you won't know how it feels to lose something until you lost it

Yay, I am back blogging. I am going to take a hiatus soon from blogging since my finals are coming up. But before that, I just want to blog about a few stuff. Anyway, I am like one of the few surviving active bloggers among my friends. Lol. Most of them have abandoned their blogs and gone off radar. Which is sad, actually, because I like blog-stalking my friends and know their latest updates. Oh well, just like every fad out there, blogging is fast becoming obsolete (is that the correct term?)...

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First of all, it will seem rude to not give my thanks and appreciation. Few months back, I joined some giveaways and I am happy that I was the winner in 2 of them! Actually, I am not really the type of person who likes joining contests and giveaways, etc. but I think I probably got influence by my roommate, who is super obsessed with joining these kind of things. Lol.

So here I want to thank these two fashion bloggers (who, IMHO, possess such great styles) for choosing me as their winner! Coincidentally, both of them gave out similar gifts as their giveaways. I received a cotton bow hairclip from Miss Incomplete and a Korean vintage polka dot bow hairclip from Revel in Me. Thanks so much ya~ I will continue to be fans of your blogs:)

Miss Incomplete who is also owner of Seventeen Origins

Revel in Me (coincidentally, she is one of my friend's acquaintances)

P.S. And no, I don't know both of them personally. I just came across their blogs and found them both to be very interesting...

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I came across this zodiac website, Zodiac Facts from also another fashion blogger, Ribbonyboo. Being the wuliao me, I decided to check it out and came across this term, "Zodiac Cusps", a category that fitted me perfectly due to my birth date. The exact meaning is:

"Cusps are the borders between the twelve astrological signs. You are considered to be 'on the cusp' if you were born within a day or two of the beginning or end of any sign."

Being born on 22nd November, I sometimes find myself either a Scorpio or a Sagittarius. And sometimes it's just confusing and annoying so I just end up reading about both these horoscopes because I don't know which one fits me better. Now I know, I am not just a Scorpio or a Sagittarius. I am a Scorpio-Sagittarius Cusp (November 19 to November 24). Lol. Anyway, I am never really the type of person who believes that astrology forces control our personality and future but some of the things mentioned are pretty interesting. There are a total of 22 attributes of Scorpio-Sagittarius cusp but I will just post some of my favourites...

01. Scorpio/Sagittarius cusps seek the truth and the meaning of life, and they love to explore through knowledge. They are investigative and probing, often strongly intuitive and penetrating. 

02. Scorpio/Sagittarius cusps are very determined, and once they’ve made up their minds, they are unlikely to change them (in other words, I am quite stubborn). 

03. Those who wish to change a Scorpio/Sagittarius mind often have trouble because they can never be sure what their motivation is; they are too complex and sometimes too secretive to be understood easily. 

04. They want to experience life, rather than read about it, and they are outgoing and friendly (not so sure about the latter part). 

05. Scorpio/Sanitarians are both mystical and scientific, a combination that makes them very aware of what is happening around them; they are a sign of great depth. Many enjoy travel and spiritual study and have daring and adventurous spirits. 

06. They are high-spirited and enthusiastic, often flirtatious, and they tend to enjoy social life immensely. 

07. They tend to be lucky and may enjoy gambling (not sure about the lucky but ya, I do like gambling). 

08. Their philosophical side makes them enjoy drama and debate, as well as most other mentally challenging pursuits. 

09. Their great love of knowledge and exploration makes them one of the most learned characters of the zodiac.

I only selected the few I thought best describe me. But then again, my personality sometimes changes according to my mood. I sometimes don't even know who I am (yet).

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On another note completely, I realized there is only about a month left before I graduate. I am so not ready for working life yet. Also, I think I will miss some of the friends I made here. When I started my graduate studies in UKM, I could hardly wait till the day I graduate because it was just so stressful being in UKM doing Pharmacy. But now that the time is almost here, I don't really want it to arrive.

P.S. Don't know why I am always having emo posts here >_<

being cruel: because some days I can be cruel

Short update: I have finally opened up my own pre-loved blog to make way for more shopping~! Lol~ Take a look *HERE*


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I'm coming home

Tell the World I'm coming home

Let the rain wash away all the pain of yesterday

I know my kingdom awaits and they've forgiven my mistakes

I'm coming home, I'm coming home

Tell the World that I'm coming

*link*

Homecoming
Feeling so emo lately...
Don't know why, must be the stress,
I have been really liking this song, especially the intro part,
Not that I am feeling homesick or anything,
No, not the literal meaning,
To me homecoming means actually finding the light,
I just want to find somewhere I belong,
Just want to know what my future is like,
I want to have that feeling of control,
To feel like I am not lost anymore...

Friends
Lately, feeling like I have been in a streak of bad luck,
It seems the more I care about something, the more I get hurt,
And when I needed people the most,
Everyone just let me down (except one),
I understand, everyone have their own goals to achieved,
People can be selfish, that is life.

Love
Before this, I used to ask friends,
What was more important?
To have feelings or to appreciate someone who is nice to you...
It seems to be unanimous,
feelings topped everything else
But then, what if the person you like more, treats you badly,
You will still forgive?
What if he never changes?

Decision
Thanks to someone,
I feel like I realized something,
I have been blinded, and stupid too,
It seems like the answer was right there all the time,
I think I now know what to do,
Yes, it is all thanks to that person.
Thank you for being selfish and unappreciative.

Think before you act
Finally,
I just want to say that,
Before you start being cocky and reject someone's favors,
And not help someone when they are in need,
Think about how you may need that person's help in the future.
Because, karma is really a bitch.
I cannot believe the extent of fakeness people can go through,
I pretend not to know just so I won't hurt you.
But I was not born yesterday.
I know more than I actually show.
All I am saying is, serves you right for being such a bitch.

***I don't know why I blogged so little. Writing always made me feel better. Always. My only chingu since small, and writing will never let me down, unlike people***