I just hand in my 1st draft of manuscript yesterday. I was so disappointed in myself for wasting so much time before this. After finish collecting my data, I should have analysed it as soon as possible but I kept procrastinating. Sometimes I think to myself, maybe I should not try to perfect my manuscript so much since the examiner will probably not give me good grades anyway. And there is a huge chance they will ask me questions that I cannot answer as my topic is such a common and broad topic.
Lately I have been feeling quite emo. It feels like everything that other people don't want to do, I always end up doing it. I always thought being nice to people will make me feel better. I mean, how I want people to treat me, I should treat them the same way too right? But how come so people can be so ignorant and can be so cruel? I guess, I should have never expected anything from others. At the end of the day, it feels like nice people always finish last.
However, I am also grateful to those who help me a lot, especially for my clinical attachment. Some people are so generous, giving me tips and lending me their work so I can prepare. It gives me hope and faith that there are good people out there although a few have really hurt me.