I have always been reluctant to admit this. But I am just going to be honest:

I. HATE. MY. JOB.

I know, I should be thankful I actually have one and to do the job that was my ambition back in Form 6 (gosh, feel so old with ambition pulak).

SOME PEOPLE ARE JUST SO MEAN.

Did they not started out like us, being prps and all, making mistakes on the job since we are all new? What the fuck is wrong with them? If you are not willing to teach, just admit it. Stop acting like you are trying to teach when you are not and then expecting me to know what to do. And expecting me to do the job perfectly with zero mistakes. I am not a ROBOT okay?

I. HATE. THEM.

I know it is offensive to scold people like this but fuck, I am just so sick of these kind of people already.

Just so tired lately... 

“oh for crying out loud humprey” – b.w.

***The title has nothing to do with the post wtf. I am such a huge Gossip Girl fan and right now I am trying to stream the latest episode of Season 5 but the damn freakin’ line is so slow wtf.***

It seems that when I first started this blog, I wanted to write about everything happening in my life, 24/7. But nowadays just for me to type anything at all is an accomplishment. I am terribly exhausted from my work. But most of all I am tired of making mistakes. The worst kind of feeling is the feeling of disappointment in yourself. This coming week is my final week in Pediatrics. I just pray and hope I can do right by making nil mistakes.

This past 2 weeks and upcoming weeks will be pretty hectic for me, especially weekends since I started my on-call shifts. My first on-call shift was this past Wednesday night and it was a disaster, needless to say. T___________T…with all these catastrophes happening in my profession, I am beginning to have doubts as to whether I made the right choice venturing down this career path.

I am working tomorrow morning, hopefully it will be better this time around…

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Just some pics in my Iphone that I have yet to post;)

Some time after my convocation, my aunt treated myself and my mom to Oriental Palace at Jaya33 for dim sum. I absolutely love to eat dim sum since young. I have never been here before but the food was delicious! A big thank you to my aunt:)

This was one of my favourites!

Lo Mai Kai

Super cute earrings – grabbed 2 for myself, courtesy of aunt:)

Recently on Monday, they closed all the clinics at Pediatrics for the MRCP exam. It was an exam for medical officers to become specialists. Each clinic was used as a venue for a station with individual themes. For the theme of Communications, they needed to cast for the role of a 15 year old Chinese girl patient. As luck would have it, myself and Li Ling were asked to auditioned for the role by the officer in the pharmacy. In the end, we each took turns portraying the same role. Myself in the morning session and Li Ling in the afternoon.

All we had to do was act according to the script given and ask the candidates questions as if we were patients ourselves. Last Sunday, we were invited to Le Meridien where all the medical professors slash examiners were having a meeting. After the meeting, the examiners met up with us role players for a short discussion. Best part was after that, we were invited to have lunch at Le Meridien restaurant buffet-style!

There were so much food that I regretted eating such a heavy breakfast. I wanted to take more pics but felt a bit shy as we were sitting at the same table as the other professors. But the food was simply awesome and we didn’t even have to pay a dime for it! 

Dessert – my favourite! There was a chocolate fondue fountain and the stone cold ice-cream booth where they will mixed any flavors or toppings for you (a la Gelatomio style @ Pavilion). I mixed green tea + vanilla + raisins + almonds = awesome but weird wtf.

One of my favourites was the pasta because we get to choose the type of pasta we wanted, the sauce and all the toppings. Then, they will cook on the spot for you. I was observing the chef cooking mine so that I can picked up some few tips wtf.

Some selca shots of me and Li Ling

Finally wore the blue floral dress that I bought in CNY but only worn once. I seriously need to start wearing my old clothes.

Please wish me luck that I stop making mistakes :(

-yours truly, fifiona-    

snapshots of my convocation ♥270911♥

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updates:

I dyed my hair! Well, sort-of. I actually originally planned to just wash and trim my unruly hair. After everything was done, the lady commented that some highlights in my hair would be really nice. Because I was so tired, I kindly declined but my mom was like, okay just do it. So I did! My first experience with hair dye. The smell was pretty intoxicating, to be honest. And then they had this thing rotating around my hair injecting heat. 

But I am super stoked with the final results. It is not so obvious as I only did some orange-coloured streaks at the top of my hair. At least it's not the same boring hair I have had for 20++ years now!

On happier news, I finally got my first paycheck! And I blew some away by shopping this week. I know, I am super inefficient in managing my finances. Must. Control. Spending. 

3 more weeks to go in Paediatrics before I moved on to my next station - Gallenicals. Praying really hard to stop making mistakes already :(

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So finally decided to blog about my convocation last Tuesday. Yes, a weekday wtf. Well, I am not really going to blog full-length about it since there is nothing much to talk about. I will just post some of my favourite shots of the day. Btw, not all these photos are taken by me. Some I stole from facebook because those that I took were so fugly (of me, of course wtf). I am also super grateful Tze Im's friend is a pro photographer who captured some really awesome shots. You can visit his facebook for more details.

The Saturday night before, I had some impromptu shots with my extended family of uncles, aunts and cousins in my graduation robes.

I arrived pretty late and omigosh so glad to see Suzane there in her bright pink robes. I had to give FSKB's graduation a miss due to work commitments. So sad I could not be there for their big day.

More impromptu cam-whore shots while waiting to enter the hall

woke up at 6.30am on saturday morning =.=!!!

I am so ecstatic that it was Friday because the next day will be Saturday. I imagined a Saturday where I can feel relax and de-stress myself from all the troubles I have at work. But instead today I had so much things going on that before I knew it, it is already 11pm and I am too dead exhausted to do anything.

Woke up super early on a weekend morning >.<. Maybe coz I slept super early last night. First time ever I went to sleep at 9.30pm wtf. Even my mom was shocked. This prp job demands so much from me and although I love the complexity and varieties that come with this job, I find it an absolute nightmare to work with people. It seems like no matter where I work, there will be at least one person who gives me such a hard time at work. Sigh. I think I am way too soft is it wtf. That people can bully me so easily. T___T

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On a happier note, this week besides all the shit happening at work, outside of work it has been a pretty awesome week. My bad streak when coming to food has ended, well, maybe at least for this week. 

It started with Levain. When anyone asks me to recommend any nice places to eat in downtown KL, Levain Boulangerie always come to my mind. The soup is super nice ok. I almost finish it and it wasn't even mine lol. 

Mushroom cream soup

Rasberry tea or something. Too sour for my liking.

Lasagna! Super delicious :)

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I specifically typed the date because it was simply, the #BESTDAYEVER.

The day started with awesome gathering slash lunch with my UKM mates - Clara, Jane and YS. It has been so long since I last saw them. Inevitably as we are all in the same profession, our talk mainly revolves around what else but our new jobs.

The food is not bad really. Quite delicious. Definitely one of those places I will frequent again in the future. The ambience is also pretty, a la Full House restaurants.